I love sugar. Well, it’s more of an obsession really. I literally will start salivating at the sight of brownies. And I refuse to leave a fancy restaurant without dessert, even if I’m stuffed. I’ll take it home, then eat it as soon as I walk through the door.
Cheesecake Factory – I’ll never leave that place without a slice of goodness!
Back in the day, when I was in that hole of an ED, I avoided sugar at all costs. I was all about the replacements. Sugar free cookies? Oh I can eat those!! Ice cream? Nope can’t do it. Sugar to me meant fat. Sugar substitutes meant lower calories. A lower calorie count won over taste and nutrition every time.
Well, not anymore.
Now I eat sugar in some sinfully sweet dessert form once a week. Yes, once a week. At least.
I know it’s high in calories.
I know it’s bad for my brain.
I know it leads to diabetes.
I know it causes weight gain.
Want to know something else? I just don’t care.
Mile High Mud Pie
After so many years of deprivation and depression and suffering through unsatisfying "healthy" desserts, I’m just over it.
And you are not going to convince me that any of those low fat sugar free substitutes taste better than the real thing. In fact, I’m going to go so far as to say that REAL cookies with REAL butter and sugar is by far better for you than cookies with fake sugar and butter. You can’t honestly tell me you’d rather have a cheesecake made with fat free cream cheese and stevia over the full fat version. It just doesn’t taste the same. AT ALL. But that’s just my opinion.
Ice Cream Cookie Sandwich
I understand that too much of a good thing is bad. Trust me, Halloween and Christmas each keep me in a sugar coma for a week. But I enjoy my holidays more when I’m not depriving myself. I can actually sit with my family and have a good time, instead of drooling on myself while they eat their pieces of pie. I actually feel joy and am able to relax, instead of focusing on all the foods and what I can and can’t eat.
After so many years of telling myself no, after so many years of depriving my taste buds of the joy of sugar, I just can’t do it anymore. For those of you who have had success giving up sugar or surviving off raw desserts, I commend you. It’s just not for me. I need my sugar. I need my chocolate. It keeps me sane, and whether you think that’s “healthy” or not, it’s not going to change.
Healthy to me is living, not depriving. I say if you want to have a piece of cake, have a dang piece of cake. And refuse to feel bad about it.
What’s your take on sugar? Do you avoid it? Do you allow yourself to have it sometimes?